My life as a Kenny Rogers song…
I’ve had some bad times
Lived through some sad times
But this time the hurtin’ won’t heal
You picked a fine time to leave me Lucille
Have you all ever heard the song Lucille? Songs like that one will stick in your head for decades, I swear. And now I’m living it to some degree, and it eff’ing sucks shit. I need to document what took place from 1998 until this hellish 2011, and here seems as good a place as any. Better than facebook, right? Having nearly 500 ‘friends’ over there makes it hard to open up, you know? So hang on tight and listen all about how I went from madly in love at 19 to nearly divorced at 32. Throw in Infertility, pregnancy losses, Obesity, weight loss, Fibromyalgia, BiPolar Disorder and a few other medical issues – oh, and bankruptcy complete with homelessness – and I have plenty of trainwreck to keep coming back. I am in survival mode right now…this cannot be allowed to break me. This time the hurting must heal.